Declarations of  Love


I've spent time thinking about the above topic. The big leaps of faith that we take in order to express this infinite verb called Love. Personally, it has come in different ways and from unexpected places some not too obvious. And yes, I am talking about the typical boy loves girl scenario but there's so much more to declaring love. It's in what we say and do for each other as friends, family and lovers. Lovers of each other. The lessons I keep learning in my relations with all the significant people in my life is that honesty, loyalty and courage are important traits. They can never be taken lightly as they cushion you in moments of light or despair. You need to surround yourself with lovers, people who in their own unique ways are committed to your presence in their lives and vice-versa. I've come to know great joy in the display of love from my family and friends, acts that have left me graceful, grateful and humbled. The crazy thing is when you are in the dark you never think of the light or imagine it possible. I'm testimony that it is. I am also learning to also be steadfast in my convictions but most importantly to be loyal, courageous and honest with myself especially because things change but the essence of who we are remains the same. I pray and hope that I never stop declaring my love for others and where I fail I learn to with sincerity, it may be awkward but we must learn to challenge ourselves. I may falter but the learning is in the process, pain and all. I am still learning but for now this is me declaring my thoughts. If you are not happy make the necessary steps to be, for we deserve nothing less especially Love in all its different faces.


SmaUniverse
It's Yours

Are You Good Enough?

It seems you can feel like you are not living your life, well enough,full enough and good enough.
I'm always plagued by days where I feel everyone else is taking the right step but me, Like I'm forever walking with an 'under construction' sign  on my forehead.
I don't think I'm unhappy, I actually quite love where I am right now but as with anything; there's always room for improvement.
So now what do I do?
I think I need to learn to tune out everyone else's beat and jam to my own with all the enthusiasm and energy I have.
Granted I'm inspired by people who have a grasp on their own rhythms but the dreams we chase differ and that in itself makes us all GOOD ENOUGH!

TALK ABOUT FAST!

Is it me or is the world moving fast? or my world at least,
If we are not talking-texting-calling-emailing-shopping-partying-drinking it's something else! Haai nna I'm tired, is it natural for us to be rushing absolutely everything? a person can't have a well thought out conversation anymore, people want to know now! I can't call back or reply to that sms/email a couple of days later after I've thought of my response. Maybe that's the problem, minimal thinking is being done. The modern age doesn't seem to value time for reflection or meditation, we are constantly running at high speeds. We, most, rather I sleep with my phone next to me, phones are at our dinner tables, weddings, funerals, you name it! It seems you are rude or have to be of a certain social standing if you ask individuals to leave their phones in their bags or cars. Even with strict instructions to switch them off, there's always that one person who is adamant their phone won't ring, we've all experienced this and it's usually at a particularly awkward moment. I must say I've also seen how Blackberry's have changed the nature of relationships, as a person still resisting having one, it seems I'll be forever wondering why I'm not part of the addictive BBM world, one step or many behind in conversations.
I'm already bothered that I check my facebook/twitter/gmail accounts so much. My phone is tucked under my pillow at night and despite that it's much more convenient to snooze my alarm (three times) before I wake up. It's the first and last thing I see each day.I have understandably so, ignored my LinkedIn account, my yahoo and my two other gmail accounts, plus I have two blogs!
I'll be the first to admit that I'm far from an internet obsessed, new age media junkie, I'm not wired that way despite my many accounts.
I still prefer writing pen and paper style than typing  and reading a physical book instead of my notebook.
I'm not sure what made me think I could be a techno savvy participant, maybe it's my publishing background , the influence of all things digital but whatever it is,PLEASE SLOW DOWN! I love quiet uninfluenced days with no beeps and junkie itches to check what everyone else in the world is up to. The challenge is not to be bothered if my phone is charged or not, such evil! :)

SmaUniverse
It's Yours!

ANGRY POSITIONS

So it’s alright for women to remain stains on your pillow,

To remain secrets from true loves,

To remain whispers in moments of passion,

Thoughts in ill equipped moments,

Is it?

So you want to be his pee hole when she’s not looking,

Stolen kisses in between lies,

Bad F*cks in secret locations?

Bad judgments induced by alcohol?

When will the fuckery end?

When will the truth be more visible in the mist of the car windows?

The height of hormones,

The suggestive nature of flirtations with married man, committed men/women?

When will we stop inducing pain in each other?

With each other?

Fuck Off!

I want no piece of the masquerade,

I want no room in your sandcastle,

I don’t need the fleeting warmth of your thighs, your chest!

I said Fuck Off with your fake ass reality,

With your disturbed frequency,

If you are not willing,

If you are not able,

If you are not it,

Then GO!

© SmaUniverse

The Winds Of Change

We are part of an unending cycle of change, and I feel it becomes more about our substance than what or whom we know. At the end of the day what will count is what kind of friend, daughter, mother, lover you were. It is quiet seldom that human nature changes but the decisions we make alter us.
What do you really want? And even if it's a lot of things, especially if you are me, you worry about the significance of your impact. I walk around probing and at times I don't come up with anything adequate to share and so In, it stays stewing in the recesses of my mind.
I value courage and bravery, after all what is left when we face our own fickleness.
I've been undergoing a lot of change lately related to relationships, friendships, work, career; value systems..I might be rambling and drowning in all the lessons. One thing I know is even if it's for a moment filled with ecstacy, joy, a thought, needed frustration, maybe change is not so bad after all. It is hard but not bad.

Smauniverse,

It's Yours.

What do you really want?

People don't have to know your name, shout out your praises!
We seem to have this obsession that success goes hand in hand with money and the material yet not with personal development, emotional intelligence and a more centered sense of being. I don't know about you but I don't want to be part of that game anymore. If it's going to bring you wealth at least let it be something that fulfills you and not for all the wrong reasons. But who am I? I speak for my own personal choices, what I know I truly need,want and deserve which I assume are basic things that a person should be able to articulate..honestly...just a thought.

SmaUniverse,
It's Yours!

And so it starts...

I've been opened up towards a new journey, to solidify who I am. It feels like I'm filling in a questionnaire to review my past and present and to draw out a plan for my future.
Family, check...
Friends,check..
Love, check... and so forth.
I've become decisive about the things I want from my life as an individual, a mother, a friend, a partner but most of all a dreamer. We can command what we want from our lives with our words, thoughts and actions, we have that much power over ourselves and everything around us. One thing I pray I never lose and always exude is authenticity, because when it comes down to it I'm as confused as everyone else and I can only authenticate my experience.

Happy New Year, I hope it brings all of us the courage to not only dream but to follow and realise our own dreams.

SmaUniverse, it's Yours!