MAD WITH LIFE

I wrote this a while back and because of the pace at which my life moves,so much has happened since and it is still happening..and now,I'm mad with life both negatively and positively. In this instance, I'll just share the positive vibrations of this life we lead...

Okay,its official, I've gone mad!
I'm beginning to see stars where there are none, maybe its my stress medication,
I'm beginning to fall in love all over again with nothing, no one and everything and everyone at the same time..

Parental stress disorder is an interesting concept,
dealing with my dual citizenship,
dealing with a work environment that is harmful, although has serious consequences for my work ethic, it holds deep and life changing lessons..

And 'Wow'..the beauty that is life,
is present in my endless walks around the city,
my age old clothing that gives me Joy,
my ambitions,
my aspirations...

I'm mad with Love,
mad to Love..
Okay i need to stop now,

But do me a favour,reconcile yourself with your madness,especially if you didn't know it exists in all of us,
Enjoy talking to yourself,
Speak your fears and insecurities aloud,
Its the only way to be comfortable and totally at peace with who you are,
Face it! WE ARE ALL MAD IN OUR OWN WAY...lol..

SmaUniverse,
Its yours.

THRIVING FOR SUCCESS?!

I came across a magazine article the other day and someone said of themself, "I have a drive to succeed". My initial thought was 'Who doesn't?' Everyone in their small or big life wants to succeed, and for others its 'cameara and lights' and others its a kiss on their forehead. It seemed a bit silly to assume that others may not possess this drive. Are we not inherently build with 'drive'? e.g 'sex drive' LOL... Some people overwork themselves, sacrifice the love of family,partners, leisure for this drive to succeed, and some remain happy or complacent with not reaching their full potential. Does it really have to be complicated for all of us? I've been thinking Business lately, although my mind seems to be in a knot,forcing me to calm down and take stock. I love Books. I love Fashion. Even if I marginally succeed in both in the world of business,i'll be happy,my love is immovable. Doing what you love is a blessing and succeeding at it more so. Enough falling asleep at work and dealing with EGO's! Enough of the paycheck to paycheck mentality and existence! Let's do what we Love and take inspiration from those who do it everyday..Assign value to your own life because naturally you have the Drive!

SmaUniverse...

Its Yours!

Born in a Taxi..great Jam...

I'm not sure if being hit,knocked down by a taxi was meant to serve a greater purpose (I do believe in the things happen for a reason' philosophy) than what I already know. Which is, firstly, I do not belong to a financial bracket that can afford a car right now.Secondly, I am not the first or the last person to suffer this injustice, and unlike many others it was minor and my daughter and I survived. It left me with minor physical injuries (bruised leg) and emotional (worry about my daughter mixed with anger and the desire to kick the taxi drivers butt for not checking his mirrors,inside bree taxi rank nogal!) concerns. Lesedi just keeps relaying the story to my parents as many times as she can and tells them I was hurt but now i'm better. She was visibly shaken and I was worried sick about her, wiping her tears away, caused by the shock and nerves. Thirdly and finally, I know never to occupy a position of victimhood, It happened, I'm alive. I will drive one day,more than anything I see the incident as motivation to overcome the social injustices of this world,that are small and have too much impact..the gaps feel too wide at times, and although our lives try to catch up with some 'standard'...The internal space, the love and support we recieve from loved ones really goes a long way. The mother instinct in me tells me,I will come right,whatever that is,for myself,my daughter and for others.

SmaUniverse,

Its Yours.

The Alter-Ego

I'm in favour of alter egos and the freedom they can give a person. I'm in no way referring to pretense or people who 'psyc' themselves up. This is a tangible you that exists purely as a fully liberated version of 'YOU'. I've always believed that 'You', 'Me', we are our own worst enemies, always finding reasons to inhibit ourselves.We hardly ever give ourselves over to moments or experiences that free us..new experiences,success.. The only way to get over the past or whatever or whoever holds us back, is to confront it head on,LIFE happens to all of us..

The courage to be brave is refreshing,feels like you've just had a shave,new territory to discover...

I love my alter-ego,wont share her name yet,she might just take over..the more she gets subsumed into my persona,the more I feel I'm becoming the woman I've always known I was..as one poet puts it..'Its time to grab liberation by the throat'. Embrace you alter-ego...

SmaUniverse

Its Yours..

Track for this one:Ego by Beyonce

The Real Bungee!!

I listen to the new Sade, Soldier of Love, as I do this and remember the shock of the moment depicted in the picture. It has followed me four days after the actual jump...one thing I've learnt though about jumping,shaving my head clean, my locks, having my child...is to always strive to be a better soldier of love for myself,to myself and the rest will follow...

SmaUniverse

Its yours...